~~The Cross~~

" Let us go to Calvary to learn how we may be forgiven.

And let us linger there to learn how we may forgive. "

by Charles Spurgeon

To me, cross signifies...

...Jesus' self-sacrifical act (He first loved us)

...positive sign (hope in Christ)

...cross sign (no to sins and transgressions)

...junction of life (freedom to choose)

...love our Lord with all our hearts,mind and soul (vertical dimension), love our neighbours as ourselves (horizontal dimension)

...centre of our life (balance life)

...same logo as St. John ambulance (to save)

What does it means to you?

~~Reveal to me~~

Whispering to Abba Father:


"Father Lord, reveal to me Your divine purpose in my life. Let me see as You do. Give me Your divine understanding. Open my eyes and help me to receive Your revelations and stay on track."

~~Woman's heart~~

Simply love this sentence.

" A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek HIM first to find her. "

Amen, Oh Lord =)

~~Answered prayer~~

一份隐藏不住的美丽~~** 主对世人的爱

Received this little email from my caregroup's member... interesting isn't?

God's Blessings

I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve.

I asked for prosperity and God gave me brawn and brains to work.

I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome.

I asked for patience and God placed me in situations where I was forced to wait.

I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help.

I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted I received everything I needed.

My prayers have all been answered.

~~恩典之路Journey of grace and mercy~~

诗篇 Psalms103:12
东离西有多远，他叫我们的过犯，离我们也有多远。

[kjv]
As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

[bbe]
As far as the east is from the west, so far has he put our sins from us.

Dear sisters and brothers in Christ, I yearn to step out of my current temporal comfort zone and run towards God's everlasting embrace. I wish to be part of "1 year 1 life" if it is really in His will. I believe in prayer. Your prayer is important to me in this journey of faith with Him. I appreciate your prayer from the bottom of my heart. Thank you.

Will you spend 1 min of your precious time to pray with me and for me?

Pray that....

....God will open the right door for me

....God will make it possible if it is really in His will

....God will go before me to prepare the way

....God will reveal clear direction and guidance

....God's perfect love will cast out slightest fear and doubt in me

....God grant me fraction of Peter's faith, enable me to "walk on the water" just as Peter did. May it be one step or two

....I will find Man of Peace whenever I go

....God grant me genuine faith,love and hope

....I will rediscover His love to the world in a unique and fresh way

Above all, let my mum come to know Christ. Her salvation definitely encourage my heart, soul and mind =)

Matthew 14:22-31 Jesus Walks on the Water

22Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd.

23After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone,

24but the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.

25During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake.

26When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear.

27But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."

28"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."

29"Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.

30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!" 31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

~~祷告~~

讚美之泉作品，曲、詞：鄭楷

禱告，因為我渺小；
禱告，因為我知道我需要明暸，你心意對我重要。

禱告，已假裝不了；

禱告，因為你的愛我需要；你關懷，我走過的你都明白。

有些事我只想要對你說，因你比任何人都愛我；

痛苦從眼中流下，我知道你為我擦。

在早晨我也要來對你說，主耶穌今天我為你活；

所需要的力量你天天賜給我，你恩典夠我用。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqdVMpHKORc

Mission~~ a joyful burden that God has been placing in my heart, mind and soul all this while. Not sure where He wants me to be, feel pretty much like Abraham at times. "Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you (Gen 12:1)..." similar kind of message keep lingering in mind. (oh Lord, I don't know what is your plan in my life and I don't have to know all things in fact, all I ask for is a teachable spirit, tender heart, sensitive mind, obedient and faithful whole self in this journey of faith.)

Last sunday I finally plucked up the courage to explore "1 year 1 life" mission program with Pastor Ivan. As the name suggested 1 year 1 life means devote 1 year of your life for mission work at foreign land. We have a small discussion about mission. He encouraged me to join short term mission as a start point. Not sure how other missionaries confirmed God's calling in their lives, all I know was tears welled up in my eyes again and again once this decision was made in my heart. The feeling is like heavy weight been unloaded from shoulder, all I need to do next is allow Him to work out His wonderful plan in my life and trust Him for provision. It is a mixture feeling of "rich" in His presence and "filled" by His Spirit. I cried my heart out to God the whole morning. Suddenly I realized (thanks Holy Spirit for open up the eyes of my heart) that how strong I have been gripping on this wordly land. All this while I have been holding on to my job, graspping on my possesion, seizing my relationship, storing up for myself treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal. For where our treasure is, the our hearts will be also (Matthew 6:19-21). How true and how real such verses are! Don't know since when insecurity and doubt have disguised themselves as excuses such as I still not ready yet (when exactly can someone be ready?), I am not good enough (who in this world is perfect?), I can't contribute much (no contribution is too small in God's sight,a willing heart to do His work is all He ask for), I simply don't have what it takes to be a missionary(He never calls the equipped, He equips the called), I might not secure a job upon returning from mission (He is the ultimate provider, whoever believes in Him never lack anything but He blessed His workers abundantly) etc. In the split second, like the veil that torn into pieces, I found myself stopped making excuses but accepted God's authority in my life. "I am the Lord, Your God." He whispered. My pride, my ego, my all knowing attitude, my grip on the so-called "my" life have been washed away by tears. This reminds me of a phrase that one of my CG's members shared with me - you have to pour yourself out to God in order for God to fill you in. What a beautiful anology of inside out transformation! I let go of ownership in my life and allow God to crown me with the status of God's child. I forgo my sin and accept His righteousness in my life. I give up my self-declared wisdom and receive His truth and life. Lord, I know that sanctification is a life long process, I pray that You continue guide me, hold me tight when I am at the brim of falling, when I am teetering on the edge or tossing to and forth by the waves of doubt, fear and insecurity. May Your perfect love casts out all the negative feeling that arise now and then. May I be made perfect in Your great love.

诗篇 Psalms56:8
我几次流离，你都记数。求你把我眼泪装在你的皮袋里。这不都记在你册子上吗？

[kjv]
Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?
[bbe]
You have seen my wanderings; put the drops from my eyes into your bottle; are they not in your record?

My little whispering to Abba Father:

Father lord, may this fraction of faith of mine be pleasing and acceptable at Your sight. Oh Lord, I am not hoping for only 1 year in my life time to be in Your field but many 1 year to come. If it is really in Your will, do not withold your divine appointment any longer. May You go before me to make all the preparation. All I need to do is to be like Abraham, be still, wait upon You and be obedient. May You continue to grant me an obedient heart to serve You all of my life. Thank you for first loved us. I ask this in Your precious name. Amen.

~~Do you really know？~~

马太福音 Matthew 5:37

你们的话，是，就说是，不是，就说不是。若再多说，就是出于那恶者。（或作是从恶里出来的）

[kjv]
But let your communication be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: for whatsoever is more than these cometh of evil.

[bbe]
But let your words be simply, Yes or No: and whatever is more than these is of the Evil One.

Bible is full of paradox, so as life. There is a very thin line between

... humility or low self-esteem;

... honesty or pride;

... complement or teasing;

... when to help that person or when to leave room of growth for that person;

... punishment out of love or withheld punishment because of love

... laughing with you or laughing at you;

... when to say no and when to say yes;

... and etc, just to name few.

Many times I am not firm enough to know by heart that

... Jesus loves me for who I am and not because of what I have done. Nothing that I have done can make Him loves me less or more

... Jesus first loves me and I ought to love others

... Jesus forgave my sins and I ought to do the same to others

... Jesus' love is unconditional and unchangeable, it remains the same today, yesterday and tomorrow

... Jesus is the ultimate judge of all circumstances

... Jesus is the best listener

... Jesus is the healer

... Jesus is the provider

... Jesus is the lover of my heart

... Jesus is my help in time of troubles

... Jesus is at work even though sometimes we might not see the outcome immediately

... Jesus does not show favouritism, I am not any better than others

... Jesus does not look at outward appearance but inward sincerity

... Jesus will never leave me or forsake me

... Jesus has a perfect plan for me

Sometimes I thought I really know but the truth is it is impossible for me to know...I thought

... Jesus wants me to do this

... Jesus wants me to accomplish that

... Jesus wants me to build "my" church....(the truth is all churches belong to Him)

... Jesus wants me to go that way

... I know Jesus' plan in my life

... it is His will but the truth is it is more of my own wishful will

Whisperig to Abba Father ( I sound like psalmist in the book of psalm...hahhahahha)

Father Lord, may You grant me consistency and persistency in prayer. May it big or small matters, help me oh Lord, help me to start everything by fervently and humbly asking Your opinion. Help me to be still, patient and wait upon You. Transform me to be Mary instead of Martha. I yearn to just sit under Your feet, fix my gaze on You and learn Your truth. Do not allow my heart to grow fade and my spirit to grow weary. Grant me joy and peace in walking in Your will. Enable me to do Your will. Grant me sensivity towards Your guidance and direction. Bestow greater wisdom and discernment in me for the expansion of Your Kingdom. Use me oh Lord, transform me to be Your instrument of Love. Help me to be more and more Christ-like. Make me salt and light of the world. Bless me abundantly so that I can extend the same blessing to the people surround me. Grant me greater endurance and discipline to perservere and stay faithful till the very end. Help me to be real and honest in front of You. Help me to see my worth and value in You. Set me apart from the bondage and enticement of the world. Help me to be pure. Send in more helpers and people to encourage me in this journey of faith. Allow me to feel Your warm embrace in my darkest hours. Help me to be who You want me to be.